MUSIC: Lost, Coldplay
There are tons of stuff that I know I cannot do, like juggling, matchmaking, keeping a straight face when trying to surprise someone, feigning concern when I’m really apathetic, acquiring a taste for curry, and a lot more!
But of late, I seem to be pretty bad about certain things to the point that it bothers me! I pinpointed some very disturbing facts and will do something about it this week. That’s why I’m blogging these, to make changes in my life:
5. Remembering (Chinese) Names. During Camp Phenomena, while waiting for her and her to finish showering, a girl called out my name. For a brief moment I was trying to dig from my temporal lobes trying to conjure her name, I wracked my brains out – nada. I couldn’t even place her face…and I tend to remember faces well. She could tell that I didn’t have an ounce of recognition by the startled look on my face, I apologised for my lapse in memory, and asked if she was going by a Chinese name, and she said yes. She introduced herself again, she said that she knows me from somewhere, from where she also couldn’t say.
The sad part is, I can’t store Chinese names pretty well, I need to be around you for a couple of days before it is permanently embedded in my memory. Either that, or we must share a very humiliating experience for me to remember you!
4. Writing replies to snail mail pals. OK, this is very bad… I haven’t replied to letters as far as one month back! The chief reason? Just look at item #2.
I have accumulated 13 letters, which is equivalent to approximately 36010.797 miles (Singapore – Italy, Chile, 3 US Cities, Ireland and UK, I got tired counting so it should be more, like Canada and California!), $14.30 in postage, 13 hours of stationery making and letter writing and another 12-14 days of waiting for my letter to reach them!
3. Loving people who have broken my trust. I have learned that trust is the most important thing in any relationship. When I was in my late teens, I valued the trust that my parents had in me, that’s what kept me making the right decisions, I didn’t want to violate that trust.
I find it difficult to restore the trust I have in a person once that trust is broken, even if they meant to or not. There will always be that incident, that smile, that concealed whisper that will lodge itself into my memory and I can never treat the person the same way again – EVER.
Because of this, I have drifted away from friends who have meant the world to me, and it saddens us both, because no matter what s/he does to bring back what was lost, and no matter how I try to be open, some things can never be recovered.
I am glad that being a Christian, I can find strength to forgive, to be cleansed away from bad memories, betrayal and resentment. But I’m praying for love to flood me, and that love to flow through all my relationships.
2. Waking Up Early. This takes second spot, I realize that some of my plans never come into fruition because of my weird sleeping habits. I know what’s right for me, but I still keep pushing myself and see if I can survive in few hours of sleep – a dumb move, still I do it.
Although this week started out terrible, waking up past noon, I want to finish a few projects this week and take advantage of daylight! I need to become a good steward of my time!
1. Keeping Promises. I am not good at keeping promises to other people and especially to myself. Making lists and good intentions can be OK but only to a certain extent, I think this post title should be changed to Better Said Than Done since I know things I ought to do but do the exact opposite of what’s expected.
I rarely make promises to others, but I abuse myself too much. This week I have made a big STUFF list of things that I want to accomplish during this season of waiting, and I want to slash 1/3 from the list before this week ends. I don’t want it to be another of those broken promises I made to myself.
We shall see by Saturday if I really made changes, progress reports will be up soon!
So what about you? What have you been bad at lately? Comments are very much welcome!
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