There are two kinds of light — the glow that illumines, and the glare that obscures.

- James Thurber

Whoever said that too much of a good thing is wonderful seriously doesn’t know me. There are times when something that I thought is good for me is actually detrimental. Like a pastime would end up swallowing my whole time, forcing me into a paralysis.I have a tendency to get addictive or severely dependent on anything or anyone that touches me in a way that I can’t shake off.  How can something that keeps me awake and motivated be so toxic to me in the end?

When I get hooked it becomes my whole world - every.single.waking.moment.even.in.my.dreams! And yes, I’m passionate that way. Like my phase with NANOWRIMO, going to the cinema every single week, collecting insane amounts of fragrances, musicals, Japanese entertainment and idols, Korean dramas and idols – I just can’t seem to function properly without getting my daily dose. It’s worse if I am fixated on a person, everything seems to revolve around them and at the same time I place them in such high regard.

My like can be pushed so far it can be to the point of distraction. It’s like getting addicted too, I (violently) deny the space and priority that this thing/person is occupying in my life.

Recently, I’ve just weaned myself of a possible distracting force, although I’m not out of the woods yet, I still am feeling relieved that the force of attraction has grown weaker as each day passes by with my resolve to remain undistracted and wholly focused on my goals gets stronger .